The truth is hard to bare and honesty, even with just myself, is a hard pill to swallow. I could sit here and blame my struggle with my weight and fitness on my upbringing, my parents' unhealthy choices became my unhealthy choices...blah, blah, blah...but that would get me no where...at lease no where I'd like to be. In my struggle, my ups and downs on the scale, I've learned that giving in to food I think I LOVE or sitting watching tv instead of being active is my choice and my choice alone. When I don't look or feel that way I want to feel I'm the only one to blame. Habits are hard to break but the only person stopping me, the only person in my way has been me.
Since the 3rd grade I've been heavier than most my age. I was also one of the youngest in my class, with a summer birthday, so I was bigger than girls nearly a year older then me. I was teased by mean little boys in elementary and middle school and was never thin in high school. I always felt like my weight held me back and kept me from fitting in. In 2006 I had finally reached a point where I could not longer stand the direction I was going. Coming up on my final year of college for my bachelor's degree in education I took a look at myself and knew I didn't want to be a "fat" teacher, I didn't want students asking me "Are you having a baby?", I wanted to be a positive role model for a healthy lifestyle, so I made small changes that I had previously made a million excuses for why I couldn't do, and in a year's time I lost 65 pounds.
I wish I could say it all stayed off and I've consistently led this healthy life style, but I can't because when life got hard I gave in to unhealthy food and used all the same excuses I used before...time, too much to do, no gym membership, money.
This cycle has repeated many times. Lost weight before the wedding, gained it back..... lost it before getting pregnant, gained it all back plus more....lost it again, gained some back in the stress of moving and work load at my job...and that's where I am now.
I'm approaching my 30th birthday in less than a week...6 days to be exact...and I am vowing to leave the struggles behind me. I know there will be bumps in the road, but 20+ pound bumps are not ok! As I challenge the next 30+ years of my life I have set very basic goals I want to achieve and will document through this blog.
Goals:
BE FIT: I'm not looking to be skinny, this is not my goal. I want to WILL achieve a healthy body fat percentage, feel good in my clothes, and comfortable in my swim suit.
Be Energized: This less you do the less you want to do, the more you do to more energy you have to do more. I want to WILL keep up with my almost 2 year old now and for years to come. I'd rather not know about the latest reality tv show because I'm busy living in my own reality playing with my son.
Motivate & Support: I want to WILL set a positive example for my son and hopefully many others. I KNOW this is not a struggle I'm facing alone, and in fact millions of Americans struggle with their weight and fitness as well. Going it alone isn't easy! I'll gladly share any tips to help others achieve their goals for a healthier lifestyle.
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